Monday, September 27, 2010

5 Weeks In...

A friend just reminded me that I haven't updated in almost a week.

I will have more of a formal medical update on Wednesday (following my appointment with Dr. Scheid), but for now, I want to introduce you to my new mode of transportation: Millienial Crutches

These have come highly recommended by top athletes and a few hip chicks. I waited all week on that UPS man to deliver them...and they came on Thursday. It took some time to get used to walking with them after using a walker for over a month. The shock absorbers are especially helpful as it bears some weight for me.

We celebrated a friends birthday yesterday. It was a lovely day with friends but it took the wind out of me to be up on the crutches for most of the day. Both my left hip and my right hip were in pain. I slept deeply last night and the swelling has gone back down. Speaking of sleep, I have had some fitful nights of sleep as I've been weaning off of the pain meds. I'm now almost totally on Tylenol (5 weeks in...I should have tried it a few weeks ago!) and this mostly does the trick. The Norco and Ultram are tucked away for now, for emergency use only. This feels like yet another milestone.

I'm also beginning to tap back into work remotely. I feel tired most of the day still so I do what I can and sleep when I need to. I look forward to a full and hopefully energized return to Outreach, Inc. (www.outreachindiana.org) in the next few weeks.

I continue on the recumbent bike a few times a week at the YMCA. This is my sanity these days (a shout out to my taxi drivers: Patrick, Matt, and Nate). I have avoided more swimming as it simply feels like too much energy to put on a bathing suit, get in and out of the pool, dry off, etc. I'm thankful to Dad and Deb for the use of their outdoor pool during this recovery period--seeing as though it's 49 degrees outside right now, I'm thinking those summer days are over!

Thank you, Jesus, that we have made it to 5 weeks!

And just for fun, here's a picture of my hot male nurse standing on the mountainside of the Napali coast on our (pre-surgery) trip to Kauai this summer:

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Day 28

It's Tuesday, September 21, 2010 and the official start of Autumn is TOMORROW, September 22 at 11:09pm ET! Fall is by far my favorite season of all. But, it's also 94 degrees in Indianapolis today--a record high.

Oh, and also, I'm 4 weeks into my recovery and week 5 starts today! Hallelujah!

Can you tell I'm counting down the days to normal life again?

I'm in the same couch position where I've written most of these posts, but feeling dramatically different than I was a few weeks back.

I am down to taking pain meds every 7 or 8 hours and my range of motion continues to improve. My swelling has decreased but is still evident. I still ice most of the day.

I hope I'm healing in ways I need to be; I have my post-op visit next Wednesday and look forward to seeing progress. In the meantime, Giada and "John Adams" have kept me good company.

The emotional load feels heavy still. I am severely dependent on others for almost all of my needs (though I've made major strides--getting my own breakfast, getting out of bed on my own, and even putting on socks when I'm sitting at the right angle!) and this is a hard and yet necessary reality. I wake each day in hopes that I will use a given hardship as a time of reflection and drawing near to God. When hope feels far away, I can spiral into negativity and wonder if this will ever come to an end:

And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you. Phillipians 4:8-9

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Hard day and a severely foul mood yesterday.

Better day today.

Beth came for a visit and reminded me of better days ahead.

I will take my fourth shower since the surgery 23 days ago. For having a broken pelvis, I seem to be doing much better than expected getting in and out of the shower.(Sharon V.--I can't thank you enough for providing some humanity in the form of that shower chair!).

Then I will likely nap again.

As a side bar, it's a happy day in our neighborhood as the house that caught on fire back in March is FINALLY being demolished and leveled. I'm looking forward to a better view from our front room!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Monday, September 13, 2010

Milestones and Week 4 begins

Another week has passed; it's time for an holistic update on this hip of mine.


Muscle strength and mobility:

A few weeks ago I could hardly imagine sitting on the edge of my hospital bed. My left leg was so limp it felt dead. I literally feel my muscles forming more and more each day. I get stronger and can now get to the bathroom and out of bed on my own (I'm without 24 hour care now, so that's a good thing!). Dr. Scheid recommended that I start on the recumbent bike and a little pool therapy last week. I did both of these (two times each) and once again, I feel more strength every day. I shared with some of you that on my first attempt at the recumbent bike (I had to lift up my leg and stick it in the strap) I had to go so slowly the machine picked up that I was on PAUSE the entire time. That felt a little discouraging but I had to laugh at it too! My range of motion seems to be increasing each day and I now find I can lift my leg off of the ground while standing on my walker.

For those of you who were not able to get on a recumbent bike or in the pool at 2-3 weeks, don't worry! I've heard of some of you starting at week 5. All of our bodies are so different and heal differently.

Dr. Scheid believes that being an athlete beforehand (I went to the gym the day before surgery--I love fitness!) provides a significant upper-hand when it comes to the healing process. My upper body strength has helped tremendously in getting around on the walker (though I do have callouses) and my right leg has been strong and helpful as a support system to my left leg and hip. I'm thankful for this.

I am still non-weight-bearing for now and hoping this will change in the next few weeks. I am debating buying "millenial crutches" as a transition from the walker. Or, I may just keep the walker and move right to one crutch when my body and doctor give the green light.

I am simply amazed at God designed our bodies to intuitively know how to begin healing and reforming after such trauma.


Pain and Numbness:

Though I do have some pain at my incision point, the majority of the pain is actually in my quad area--Denise explained that this is normal as a lot of blood is rushing back down and "getting back into place." The nerves, tendons, muscles, bone are all growing back in and she believes this is causing the ache. I was surprised at how sensitive to the touch my quad (femoris rectus) has felt for these past three weeks.

I sometimes turn in certain directions, while sitting, and feel this excruciating pain.

I ice all day and usually all night long. It's what's most comfortable and I'm looking forward to the inflammation decreasing near the incision.

And lastly, I've been slowly weaning off of taking narcotics every 3 hours. I am down to taking them every 6-8 hours, except on days I am on the bike. I am highly aware of others who have grown a little dependence on the medications and I'm trying my best to listen to my body and wait for the pain to come.

As you can imagine, I'm not driving yet.

The left side of my


Emotional well-being:

For me, my emotional and spiritual health have been vital factors to my healing process. Many of my family and friends have worried about this factor the most. I went from leading an extraordinarily busy and frenzied summer season to now sitting in the same three spots for three weeks (and more to come). Yikes! Week 3 brought some more "rays of hope" in the form of consistent visits from family and friends, new strength coming in my left leg, beautiful incoming Fall weather, healthy meals filling our home (thank you!!), consistent and sacrificial care from Nate, my mom, dad, and many, many others, and a rich time of prayer, reflecting, reading, and writing. Though I did not predict this, I have come to embrace my own version of "hip sabbatical" and many times have thanked Jesus for this rare time of quieting down and returning to center.

I've had hard days and many low moments as well. I feel without purpose. I envy those outside taking a jog or walk, I wonder what I'm missing at Outreach, Inc., I get sad when I can't sleep next to my husband, and I simply get discouraged that I can't walk to the restroom or take a step without my walker. (on a side note, I'm hoping to make it upstairs tonight to finally sleep with Nate in our bed!)

And then, God provides a visit from a friend with a Pumpkin Latte in hand. Or, a wheelchair walk around the Farmer's Market on Saturday morning, and sunflowers to show for it. Or, an impromptu visit from a neighbor or friend. Or, cards or flowers that arrive daily in the mail reminding me to "press on" and to be encouraged. Or, catching up on Arrested Development! I have had family and friends give up time with their kids, spouses, work, etc. to spend time with me and serve me. It is humbling.

My next appointment with Dr. Scheid is on Septmeber 29th. I look forward to seeing my x-rays and noting the bone growth at that 5 week mark.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Beginning Week 3 and Empathy

“Compassion is sometimes the fatal capacity for feeling what it is like to live inside somebody else's skin. It is the knowledge that there can never really be any peace and joy for me until there is peace and joy finally for you too.” Frederick Buechner

We are two weeks into the surgery. Given the immense nature of a hip osteotomy and the longevity of the healing process, you can imagine how much I look forward to getting outside, feeling the sun on my face, and tasting this end-of-summer/pre-fall weather that came upon us this weekend in Indianapolis. So, on Friday, bad mood and all, Nate took me out for a drive and stopped at the Monon (a local bike/running path in Indy) trail for a wheelchair walk. We also stopped to get a little dessert to heal the post-surgery blues. It was strangely romantic and at the same time, vulnerable and exposing. As Nate wheeled me into Huddles for frozen yogurt, I noticed a very different world around me. Kids and adults alike looking intently at this curious 30-year-old in a wheelchair. I recall feeling less confident than usual, putting my head down as to not see the eyes gazing with curiosity. I felt, as I'd imagine to feel, handicapped.

This weekend I have thought a number of times about Friday evening. I tried to enter the "feelings" of what it is like to be "not-so-normal" in this world. And then, I also thought of those who ran across the ice cream store to simply open the door for us. Compassion overtook me as I thought of those who live in this "not-so-normal" way EVERY DAY. Someone else bathes them, EVERY DAY. Someone else has to push them around, take them to the restroom, feed them, brush their hair, EVERY DAY.

And so I thank the Lord for this lesson, this reflection. It stirs a more grateful heart in me when I start to feel sorry for myself. And, it reminds me of the strength within those who know this "handicapped" way so intimately-and then also, the beauty that exists in this world in the form of those who open doors, wait patiently, or stare with kindness and wonder. The Lord has allowed me to take a peak into this unique lifestyle and grow a deep respect for those who are both caretakers and "care-taked, " still living with faith, hope, and love.

It also reminds me to pray for those who struggle to see the beauty within the disability--those who have been overtaken by the bitterness and anger that can so easily overtake a person.

I will choose empathy and gratitude today.

p.s. Thanks to Todd and Angelin for the new Buechner book...

Thursday, September 2, 2010

The Revealing

Here are a few pics of our hospital visit as well as my new beauty mark:









Also, before I forget, and because this would have been helpful for me to know, here's a list of items I'd recommend for future hipsters to have for your future surgery visits:


  • -Facial cloths
  • Baby wipes (you'll need them)
  • Dry Shampoo (I found mine at Ulta and despite what others say, this DID work for me!)
  • Tooth brush and tooth paste and some gum for moments you don't feel like brushing
  • A change of fresh pajamas when you simply cannot stand those hospital suites any longer
  • A small mirror to freshen your face when you feel a need to remind yourself of your feminine side
  • Deoderant (of course!!)
  • I brought my bible, a book, and some magazines but rarely felt a desire to read at all (though my husband read to me and this was soothing)
  • A razor in case you feel you've met your quota of 'days without shaving your armpits'
  • Unscented Lotion
  • Mouthwash
  • Chapstick

(I may add to this list as my memory comes back!)